I need books. I need books now. I should really go search for books.
to see or not to see twilight
“ [Belle is washing the Beast’s wounds]
Beast: [roaring] Aaargh! That hurts!
Belle: If you’d hold still, it wouldn’t hurt as much!
Beast: Well if you hadn’t have run away, this wouldn’t have happened.
Belle: If you hadn’t *frightened* me, I wouldn’t have run away!
Beast: Well you shouldn’t have been in the west wing!
Belle: Well, you should learn to control your temper. Now, hold still. This might sting a little.
[presses cloth to wound; the beast growls in pain]
Belle: By the way, thank you for saving my life.
Beast: [stops growling] You’re welcome.
Beast: [roaring] Aaargh! That hurts!
Belle: If you’d hold still, it wouldn’t hurt as much!
Beast: Well if you hadn’t have run away, this wouldn’t have happened.
Belle: If you hadn’t *frightened* me, I wouldn’t have run away!
Beast: Well you shouldn’t have been in the west wing!
Belle: Well, you should learn to control your temper. Now, hold still. This might sting a little.
[presses cloth to wound; the beast growls in pain]
Belle: By the way, thank you for saving my life.
Beast: [stops growling] You’re welcome.
Because I am. It’s been six months now, and it’s been easier then I thought.
“ After denuding the trunk, the men left to denude others, and for a time the tree stood blighted, trying to raise its stunted arms, a creature clubbed mute, only its sudden voicelessness making us realize it had been speaking all along.
— The Virgin Suicides (novel)
Being Self
It is horribly difficult to be myself. I would very much rather be someone else entirely. Can you make that happen? Make me into someone else? Someone with thier own ideas? It’s so hard to try to be original. Everything has has already been done once before. I spend all of this time trying and not actually being.
“
The Velveteen Rabbit
“Does it hurt?” asked the Rabbit.
“Sometimes,” said the Skin Horse, for he was always truthful. “When you are Real you don’t mind being hurt.”
“Does it happen all at once, like being wound up,” he asked, “or bit by bit?”
“It doesn’t happen all at once,” said the Skin Horse. “You become. It takes a long time. That’s why it doesn’t happen often to people who break easily, or have sharp edges, or who have to be carefully kept. Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in your joints and very shabby. But these things don’t matter at all, because once you are Real you can’t be ugly, except to people who don’t understand.”
